why is getting ready more fun than actually going out

Josh is very chalant chalant, honest, direct and vulnerable and so cute I'm so so in love with him smh ❤️ The way I used to by Amber smith @nardiyula @onyxstorm_3600

“So,” he says, nervously twirling the dandelion between his thumb and index finger. “You have me in suspense, you know that, right?” “Oh,” I say again. “Sorry.” “So, should I just take that as a no?” he asks, still smiling. “It’s okay. I just don’t wanna keep feeling like such an idiot.” He laughs. And I want to laugh at the fact that he’s the one feeling like an idiot here. I wish I could somehow make him understand that I want to say no as much as I want to say yes. “No, that’s not it. I just—” But I can’t finish because I don’t even fully understand it myself. “Well, what is it?” “I don’t know,” I mumble. The shape of his mouth looks a little confused, uncertain if it should smile or frown. “Are you doing this on purpose? I really can’t tell.” “Doing what?” “Screwing with me—not giving me a straight answer.” “No, I’m really not. I swear.” His eyebrows pull together, a vertical line forming in the center of his forehead. He looks at me appraisingly. “Forget it,” he finally says